…an overachiever but perhaps might not think you are, because nothing you do is ever quite good enough. You’re hard on yourself and you’re your own worst critic because everything needs to be perfect, especially your food choices and your body. You’re a black-or-white thinker and there is no in-between.
You’re either stuck in the hell hole of restriction and can’t get out or you’re going through hellish cycles of restricting, bingeing and purging or bingeing.
If you’re in the restraints of anorexia or orthorexia, you’re paralysed by food in general and your entire life revolves around restriction, exercise compulsion and OCD in regards to what and when you can eat (OCD ED behaviours). You’re living in constant anxiety and fear.
If you’re in the restrict-binge-purge cycle, you “fall off the wagon” and find yourself knee-deep in chocolate. You go “all in” eating all the foods that you’ve previously banned to excess. You can’t stop when you’re full and you practically force-feed yourself knowing that you’re going to be starting another diet again on Monday so you “must get it all in now!” (I call this last supper syndrome.) You may or may not make yourself sick or take laxatives in an attempt to “clean out” the “wrong” you feel you’ve just done. You may or may not exercise to excess the next day to try to “compensate”.
You feel shit about yourself for doing this over and over and over again. When you make a promise to yourself that you’re “going to stick to it this time” you mean it with every cell of your being… until those cravings hit you like a ton of bricks and you cave in again. The more diets you go on and fail, the less you trust yourself to stick to anything. You seem to have completely lost your ability to diet.
Regardless of what eating disorder you identify with...
You feel like a big fat failure. You can’t stand the way you look… the size of your thighs, tummy, arms, bum, face – fill in the blank. You feel unhealthy and shitty in your body and you just want to get rid of these god-awful feelings of despair, failure and self-loathing. At the same time, you don’t feel worthy of getting rid of those feelings and can’t even imagine what self-love could possibly feel like.
You’re constantly comparing yourself to other women who are slimmer, leaner, fitter, prettier, whatever-er than you and you can’t stop. You can’t watch a movie without being envious of the beautiful women with amazing bodies. You feel so inadequate.
If you’re in the restrict-binge-purge (or no purge) cycle, you know that all you need to do is to just STICK TO A DIET like you’ve managed to do countless times before. You wonder why you just can’t conjure up enough willpower this time. You feel like there’s something wrong with you.
If you’re in anorexia or orthorexia, you know you just need to climb out of the hell hole and face your food fears, eat and rest in order to recover and to thrive in life, not just barely survive. You feel like there’s something wrong with you.
*Spoiler alert, there’s nothing wrong with you, you just think there is. But I get it. I’ve been there. There’s a way out I promise.
If you want to stop being consumed by constant thoughts of food and your body then apply for a consultation call with me. It will be the best decision you’ve ever made and I don’t say that lightly.
Areas that I can help you with:
Women come to me when they’re ready to let go of calorie counting, restriction, binge eating, purging and their obsession with food and their bodies. They know that their current way of living is not only exhausting, but it’s just not serving them. They want to live in food freedom and body love but they’re not sure how. They’ve tried everything but nothing seems to work.
I serve these women powerfully, without fear that they won’t succeed. Because I’ve been there and now I’m free. My clients and I are living proof that it’s possible for you too, especially with my support, guidance, knowledge and love.
It’s okay if you don’t fully believe that this will work for you when you come to me. I will believe for both of us until you do, too.
Most women stay stuck in a disordered eating pattern their whole lives. They spend their entire existence wishing they were thinner. They’re never truly happy. On their deathbeds, they look back and regret those lives. Not my clients.
But I don’t know if it can work for ME…
If I got given a euro every time someone said that to me, I’d be a millionaire by now! I get it. Really. The number of times you’ve promised yourself you’ll eat more tomorrow and stop exercising as much. The number of diets you’ve been on and “failed”. The number of times you’ve asked your partner to “not let you eat chocolate (or fill in the blank)” and so you just end up eating it in secret anyway and then feeling resentful toward them and hating yourself even more…
I’ve been there and I honestly thought that there was nothing that could ever work for me. After all, I had spent over 20 years the way I was around food. I thought I was so fucked up with food and only able to like my body and myself when I was slim that there was nothing that could help me.
But here I am in total food freedom and overflowing with self-love! And I know that you can be here too. All you have to do is trust me and the process, show up and do the work and food freedom and body love will be yours.
If I could give you a taste of what it feels like to live in full food freedom and body love, I know that there would not be any doubt in your mind about starting this journey. Full recovery from eating disorders and disordered eating is so much more than you ever think it could be. It is the mental relaxation and the change in perception that turns the world into a blissful place – rather than the hellhole of anxiety that you’re currently in.
And so ultimately the question isn’t; “Can this work for you?” the question is; “Are you ready to truly live in food freedom and body love?”
Have you had enough of fighting with yourself yet?
Are you ready to finally feel normal around food and to love yourself without constantly wishing you were thinner?